Master of my Own Domian.

I find myself wondering things that I know aren’t right for me to think.
I find myself fighting dreams that I know I shouldn’t dream.
I find myself thinking thoughts I shouldn’t think.
I find myself having feeling that I should not feel.
All I wish I could do is run and hide away from you.
But, alas I cannot for fear of destroying everything I touch.
I try to hold onto whatever sanity I have left, but the meter is running out.
I guess I need to put more coins in the slot, to keep from the loony bin..
I still don’t know how I can put myself through this intense flame.
Finding feelings that I thought were chased away by ice, seem to simmer to the surface and burn through me.
I run and cannot hide from them, they bombard me with endless torment.
But what am I to do, they say the heart feels what the heart feels!
If my heart won’t stop these foolish feelings
Then it needs to be carved out and put on the shelf were it belongs until the day that I can truly be the master of my own domain.